I'm going CRAZY with emotions!!!! YIKES!
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I'm going CRAZY with emotions!!!! YIKES!
| Fri, 04-24-2009 - 1:40pm |
So this is my 2nd affair. The 1st one lasted about 9 months. I thought I was "in love" with him. However, I know now that it was "lust". My new AP is so much different than the

wish I had some advice for you, lol, but I am looking for the same answer!
I have been married almost 12 years, we just sort of grew apart. Then, ironically, my first love, love of my life contacts me after 15 years of no contact. Telling me we wants me back. This just intensified what what already wrong in my marriage. I have 2 little ones and that is the main reason I stay, I WANT to WANT to be with their dad and do stuff together. however, since I starting talking to the EX, I can't stop thinking about him, wanting to talk to him, be with him. He is out of state (far away) so that is a GOOD thing. NOthing physical. although if I saw him it would be.
My H found the phone calls and knows I talked to him. he promises to make me feel more loved. which is nice. he says he is totally invested and in love with me and wants it to work. i SAID the same, but not sure deep down I do. I just want to be with my kids. I like my content life. but the GUILT is horrible. I suspect you are feeling the same. I wish I had answers for you, I don't, but wanted to tell you, you are so not alone!!
Well girls welcome to the party!
I have been where you are