It may be over

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It may be over
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Fri, 02-27-2009 - 5:36am

After a year and a half of the EA , AP & I had a big talk today. He is not the kind of person who would let his emotions show and I think I may have pushed him over the edge a little on what I mean to him. I think its partly my fault

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Mon, 03-02-2009 - 2:14am
Tyger - I would like to get to where you are with "whoever you call him". Emotionally removed from AP. H was here and it was wonderful and now that he went back I got thrown into this whole confused state with AP. I know you ladies asked me not to contact him but I caved. Just sent him a quick hello email... Its been over 12 hours and I havent heard from him. Of course the worst thing one could do is put themselves in a situation like I did .. emailing somebody when you
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Mon, 03-02-2009 - 2:21am

I am hoping that he wants a break because I definitely want him as a friend. I have a feeling that he also let guilt come in between us. I asked him about what he would do if W found out that we talk and email as much as we do .

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Mon, 03-02-2009 - 8:16am
which would be the reason we said don't call or contact him, but, it's cool we all do the same..my xap is acting way wierd and strange this last week...or really since we started communicating again...he's actually at times pissing me off

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Mon, 03-02-2009 - 3:58pm
did you ever get your response from ap..?

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Mon, 03-02-2009 - 11:11pm
No :( and its been about 36 hours. He told me he may not respond. Not really sure what to make of it. Maybe it is the end ...
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Wed, 03-04-2009 - 3:43pm

checking in again....this is the last time...if you haven't heard from him by now..do not cave in and call him...seriously...wish you the best....

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Wed, 03-04-2009 - 8:36pm
Thanks Tyger.I had sent him another quick hello asking him whether things were ok about 24 hours ago ( I know I know I shouldnt have). He responded back immediately that everything was ok and that he was not going to respond to my emails. He had originally wanted to think about things for about 3 weeks and for Friday that would be a week.
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Thu, 03-05-2009 - 1:03pm
well you'll be fine...my xap acts like a dicchedd sometimes but then gets jealous and it comes out in him hollaring and screaming..and we arent even together..and this point i don't give a flying fugg for real...just wait it out..maybe by the time he gets back to you, you will have let it all go....feel me...take care of yourself in the meanwhile

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Fri, 03-06-2009 - 11:05am
I know what you mean tyger and maybe I will get over him. Im just using this time to clear my head and use this time on how "not" to obesses if ever we hit it off again. I really enjoy having conversations with him. Truth be told I dont know that since H I found anybody interesting enough at all to even talk to for more than a few minutes. With AP(?) I can for hours and some meaningful stuff. Who knows what hes going through? Its a very weird time for me because in a year and a half there hasnt been a single day where we havent emailed each other and now its been a whole week with no emails. Unfortunately there are way too many triggers all around and they get me. I miss talking to
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Fri, 03-06-2009 - 11:58am

you will need to replace those triggers with other things....seriously...if a song comes on turn it off...if there's something he's given you put it away...all my gift cards and ribbons and cards are tucked away...in a secret little place..i don't want to destroy them because they are momentos but, i also don't want to look at them...unfortunately i like all my clothes and shoes and it doesn't bother me to wear them at all...there's a gold charm that's tucked away too...i have thought about throwing the pipewrenches he bought and used to put a spa showerhead on my shower, through the window of his car..but still am not sure i'm gonna do it..just joking..trying to make you laugh..but i don't know it sounds like a good idea..and who's he gonna tell..oh no i'm not uhmm like hurt in that he didn't leave his wife and it's not a case that he broke up with me...he just is on my skit list right now and well

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss