is it possible?

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-06-2008
is it possible?
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Thu, 12-11-2008 - 2:25pm

I am experiencing something that is foreign to me. Immediate affection. First AP is amazing, we have history and he will always be "the one" I should have been with. But never will. He made me work for his love, whether he knew it or not. He always held back just a little. Always.

This new AP......where do I start? He is nice. He doesn't make me guess(all the time anyhow) whether he likes me or not. If he isn't going to be online or available, he TELLS me! He actually communicates with me. I hate to compare him to first AP but I can't help it!
He tells me that he likes me. He tells me that he misses talking to me. He tells me he can't wait to see me. It took almost 2 years to get anything like that with first AP and we knew each other since we were teens!! Mind boggling.

I just needed to share a little. I hear of people on here talking about being in contact with AP every day even if it's just a hello or something small. But this AP seems to care enough to do that. It may help that I told him from day one that nothing makes me bitchier than lack of communication. Or it could just be who he is. I dunno.

OK, I'm done gushing for now. It feels good to relate to some of you other gals:-)

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-12-2008
Thu, 12-11-2008 - 2:37pm
Are you juggling 2 AP's as well? is it that once we get into one A, we get to know all the 'know how' and it makes catching another AP easier? happens with me.I am not juggling but have had quite a few AP's.i need change in sexual experiences,lol!
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-03-2008
Thu, 12-11-2008 - 2:53pm
i was wondering the same thing because if this with the current "whateva you wanna call him" ends..i don't think i want this again...i think i've felt every single emotion i could ever feel within this time period me and "whateva you wanna call him" have been together

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-06-2008
Thu, 12-11-2008 - 3:09pm

I happened upon AP #2 on purpose kinda. I know it's shifty, but so is having an A. AP1 was/is the love of my life...always has been. He starts having "something" with another women. He won't say exactly what the relationship is but I know it's something. We never said we were the only ones for eachother but I ended up feeling that way. I wasn't interested in anyone else. At all! After 2 years!

I was insanely jealous. It was really bad. But I love him. I did several things to get over the jealousy. Nothing worked. So I thought maybe if I started just flirting with someone else, it would relieve the jealousy. And I had no intentions of telling AP1. Not because I'm hiding anything but I was trying to deal with the jealousy. Well, I hit a wall and ended up telling him that I sought out another man. No other details. He felt some of the same jealousy.

In the mean time, I have been talking to AP2(they know about one another)and really building an emotional bond. We really click. But I know everyone says that in an A. But over time, we seem to be getting closer. His wife knows he is cheating but doesn't care as long as the bills are paid. Very sad if its true.

Anyhow, I never intended to like AP2 as much but I do. He is attentive like I need and crazy sexy as hell!! If he is not careful, he may really pull me in and win my heart. He's awful close but I am holding back a little bit. Just not ready to step over that cliff yet.