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Is it really love?
| Mon, 10-27-2003 - 4:24pm |
Since me and MM have been together for 4 months (friends for a year)we have turned maybe what was supposed to be a sexual affair into an emotional one. We have both said that we love each other and just yesterday he told me that he will always love me, this after the fact that we will no longer be working together because I move to another department, but we will still see each other in the building. We both talk about our marriages about our problems well just about everything. He has not mentioned anything about staying or ending his marriage he just talks about W and their everyday things. In the beginning told me that he cared for her because she was the mother of his child and the years they have been together but that they are more like friends. I have not mentioned anything either about staying or leaving my marriage either and told him I have about the same relationship with H as he does with W, although they do fight more than me and H do. I have fallen so much in love with him though that I don't know what to think about my M. I have not been in love with my H for a while and honestly I have never felt like this for anyone. I am very guarded with my felings with MM. He is usally the one to initiate seeing each other, intimacy, and the "I love You"s I usually say "me too" I am so afraid that if I show him affection I will push him away, but on the other hand I feel I am doing that by not doing anything at all. I just don't know how to act. I have never been in this situation this is my first EMA and he says it is his too. Now that I will no longer work with him I feel like I am going to lose him and after that "I will always love you" it seemed like a goodbye. Also the no talk of the future. Maybe I'm just nutty. I'm open to any input please!!!

On the topic of expressing yourself...I am a firm believer that expression is important and if my telling someone that I love them pushes them away then thats just the way it will be. I refuse to let an opportunity slip by when I want to express my feelings for someone...is there a bigger compliment out there than telling someone that you love them? I dont say "I love you" with the expectation of a reply...it's a statement, not a lead in line...
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