To Jen and Others....

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To Jen and Others....
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Wed, 01-21-2009 - 5:10pm
~k
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Wed, 01-21-2009 - 6:02pm

So why would you continue to do that which you claim caused you so much pain? Makes no sense whatsoever. Good luck with all that. How's it working for you?

Only the truth will set you free.




Edited 1/21/2009 6:15 pm ET by tellithowitis
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Wed, 01-21-2009 - 6:37pm
i had to put things into perspective and its working just fine for me, thank you
~~Kimmie
~k
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Wed, 01-21-2009 - 7:18pm

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Thu, 01-22-2009 - 4:21am

I for one, am really glad that you made the choice to stick around. I have to confess to you, and the board that your reply to tellit where you admitted that you had some issues really moved me. I could FEEL your pain. You were so open, and honest about your most private flaws, and I have to say that it has really given me a new perspective of you. I see you in somewhat of a different light now, and I'm sorry if that post was hurtful, but I think that the initial post was something that you needed to hear.

I really have to be honest here. This is difficult for me, because I'm not really one for a whole lot of warm, and fuzzy feelings. But you have been on my mind since I read your reply, and I know where you are coming from when you speak of abuse, and being violated as a child. I just see so much sadness in you Kimmie. I can see how much you are hurting, and I wish that there was something that I could say to make it all go away, but in the end, you are the only one that can do that, by going to counseling. I know that you said that you're not ready yet, and I respect that, but please do not sit that idea on the back burner, and forget about it. If you do, eventually what you are doing is going to catch up to you in a big way, and I would like to see you avoid that.

I also want to make it clear that I do not condone your behavior, and I consider it self sabotage, and self destructive, even though I didn't have the courage to say it to you myself. I hope that you continue to share w/ us, and let us see a few more layers like you did the other day. You're in trouble now, because I know that you're not this hard b*tch that has no feelings, which was how I viewed you before. I know now that you are capable of deep thoughts, and feelings that I had never seen from you before. I know that deep down you are very hurt, and very troubled, and I want you to know that if you ever need someone to talk to, you can email me directly through this site. I'm here if you need me.

Justice

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Fri, 01-23-2009 - 1:26pm
thank you, justice very much.
~k
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Sat, 01-24-2009 - 3:43am

I can really relate to the fact that you don't want to deal w/ the abuse that you suffered through. It's hard, strike that, it's EXTREMELY hard. I have started counseling more times then I can remember, but as soon as this topic comes up I start finding excuses not to go, but I didn't realize it at the time. One counselor finally pointed it out to me. So when it got heavy, I put all my effort into facing the past, and it's many horrific memories. I got to the point where I would bust out crying, and didn't know why. I started disengaging from my family. I could hear my kids standing right in front of me calling me, but hearing it just wouldn't connect w/ my brain so that I could answer. I had to stop going. It was way to difficult. So, I know where you're coming from.

I just wanted to reach out and let you know that you're not alone, and that if there comes a time that you want to talk about it, or anything else, just shoot me an email, OK?

Try not to let the idiots on here get you down. Just like you said. Until you have walked a mile in my shoes, and know just where it pinches, then you have no right to judge. Stay strong, and do your best to stop the self destructive behavior, it's only yourself that you are hurting, and I would like to you see you stop that. Take care.

Justice