Just going to burst if I dont tell(long)
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Just going to burst if I dont tell(long)
| Tue, 04-27-2004 - 4:21pm |
Hi Im new here but I have to tell someone about my affair or im gonna burst.... I am married 16 years with 3 children. I love my husband but im not in love with him anymore.. We both know that we are not compatible anymore but we both dont want to do anything about it. We do not have a steady sex life. I am just not interested in him sexually. He doesnt turn me on. He wants sex but I refuse him alot. I started to go on a chat line for fun about 6 months ago. I chatted with a few guys steadily for a while and they all want cyber sex which some of them i did do stuff but not with all. Then out of the blue this guy pm's me and we start chattin. He is married for 17 years with one child. He lives about an hour away from me. He was really nice and wasnt into talking dirty and stuff just pure friendship. I was glad cuz i was sick of the sicko's all wanting cyber from me. So we chatted for about a month and we both realized that we wanted to meet each other. Then all of a sudden i didnt hear from him for about 1 month. I just thought maybe something happenned or he wasnt interested or something so i pmed him a few times and he didnt answer so i just left it. Then one day he leaves me a message that he wanted to talk to me. So we connected online a few days after and he told me he was just scared cuz he knew that we connected well and he was nervous about it. We decided to meet. We met 8 weeks ago and from the first second we met we were in each others arms. We met every weekend for about 4 hours each time and all we did was walk talk kiss and hug. Till last week when we rented a hotel room to do more. We spent 6 hours together in the room. We made love a few times and had lunch and just enjoyed being together. The sex was wonderful but I didnt have an orgasm. It felt great but....He came a few times but not me. In fact he hadnt had sex with his wife for over a year and with no other partners except his wife and now me. He came before I even knew it. Both times...so fast.. I dont ever have a problem in that department but I didnt really know why I didnt come but I really enjoyed the intimacy with him. We met the following week and had intercourse in the car. Again I didnt come but he did. (Fast again). It doesnt really bother me that I didnt come but I hope to sometime with him. I was wondering is it because he is smaller than my husband in that department? Do you think that makes a difference? He has told me this past week that he loves me and I kinda love him also but both him and myself are not willing to break up our marriages and families so we are just going to continue with our secret relationship. What do you think...am I stupid for doing this affair? Im not going to tell my husband about it cuz it would just hurt him too much and i find that there is no need to tell him either. No one would find out about our affair cuz we do not meet anywhere that someone would know who we are. Thanks for listening to me...I needed to get this off my chest.
