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| Sun, 12-07-2003 - 8:54am |
I have lurked here a long time. I understand and appreciate what everyone goes through here, trying to figure these Rs out. I am having a rather rough day, so thought I would post a brief introduction here and get some support.
I am a MW involved with a MM. It's only been a few months, though we've known each other for longer. It's been confusing for us both, because we don't want to leave our Ms, and yet we realized this past week that if this EMA continues, we will allow very strong feelings to grow and we don't know if we can handle it. We discuss all this quite openly, but I am still wanting the EMA to continue and MM is undecided. So for a while, he has been pulling away, then coming back, then pulling away again... welcome to the roller coaster, right?
Anyway, this weekend he went away with his W so they could focus on each other and their M. And I do support him in this - we had always said that our Ms come first - and I know things have been very rocky for them. But I still hate thinking about them spending all this time alone together. And I am nervous that he will come back to me tomorrow and say we are "off" again.
So that's the intro. For today, to keep my mind off MM and the fact that I can not control what he's doing/thinking or going to do/say tomorrow, I have a list of things I need to get done today, things to keep my focus off of MM. But I will be checking in here periodically and appreciate any support anyone can offer. I know I can get through this... I just hate thinking about it.
Thanks in advance, Anna

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Great advice as ever, liberal girl. *hugs*
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