Just need a little advice
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Just need a little advice
| Wed, 07-08-2009 - 12:48pm |
I’m looking for advice on how to get control of emotions. My story: reconnected with my high school/college sweetheart 2-1/2 years ago (after 8 years of NC). It started out as catching up, getting to know each other again (he’s married, 2 kids, lives out of state from me (I’m married, 1 child). All contact was through phone/email. The EA started about 2 months into our reconnection. Then a few months after that, he and his family came to town and we met for lunch, which turned physical. That was 2 years ago. Since then, we’ve met for lunch (maybe 1 or 2x a year), but have resisted the urge to do more than kiss. Being part of each other’s lives has been good; we’ve been able to balance have an EA and our own lives- and both of us had made it clear that right now, neither of us wanted to dissolve our marriages (we both have children). As life does, it moves on, and things happen. He told me about 3 months ago his wife was pregnant again; today he found out it’s a boy (he already has 2 girls). When I initially found out his was going to have another child, I cried. It felt like, though we had no intention on ‘running away together’, that with another child, well, any hopes that in the future we���d be together were gone. Because yes, we had talked about how we wanted so much be together eventually. I’ve been having a hard time with my feelings- I know what I’ve gotten myself into—and I know that in having an A, comes hurt feelings. Please don’t judge me- I know that I sound horrible for continuing a relationship with a man who is having another child, and then talk about my feelings getting hurt, but I just need some friendly (or at least constructive) advice on how to get over the hurt in knowing that life just moves on, for you and your AP.

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