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| Sun, 10-11-2009 - 1:56pm |
I know that this place is a place for support and most Affair relationships are draining, full of disappointments and pain but I need to tell someone about being able to spend 6 hours with AP last night and is the nature with our relationships, I don't have anyone to tell in person.
AP and I have been able to meet up once a week for the last 3 weeks, even thou we haven't been able to spend any alone time, we have meet for drinks. I enjoyed spending the time with him, but trying to arrange our schedules so we could spend some time just one on one was impossible.
Yesterday, he sends me a txt saying he's at the lake house all alone and I should bring him his laptop (old joke from when I use to work for him), he knows it's impossible as my husband works evenings on weekends and I have a house full of kids. We spent the day txting back and forth teasing each other about everything and anything. At 5:00 o'clock my husband called me and said he was coming home early, everything was wrapped up for the night and if I wanted I should call some girlfriends and head out for the evening as I've been stuck at home all week with sick kids. So of course I jump at the chance, I sent AP a txt simply say "_____ will be home will be home by 6". AP quickly replies "does that mean you can sneak out?" We arrange to met halfway between my place and his lake house for dinner, drinks and some alone time.
Normally we spend our time out together careful of who might see us and keeping a business like appearance over dinners, but there is something to be said about being in a town where NO ONE knows either of us and we can be a "real" couple. I almost died when he reached out and touched my check, leaned over and kissed me and rested his hand on my thigh during dinner. The waitress at the restaurant asked us who long we had been together and before I could answer, AP told her just over 3 years. When I got up to use the rest room, she stopped me to tell me that she wished her husband looked at her the way mine did, with such love and desire. That she could tell that he was deeply in love with me and it was so sweet to see. I just smiled and turned to look back at him and he was talking to the young man seated next to him at the bar, he caught me looking at him and he smiled that smile that just makes me melt. I gave him the look that after 3 years he knows all to well and by the time I got back from the restroom, he had paid the tab and was waiting for me. We spent the next 4 hours rolling around on a hotel bed, normally we both are so animalist when it comes to our alone time as we spend so much of our time pretending not to to desire each other like we do, that when we are alone the desire is so strong and uncontrollable. But the rare times when we get to interact openly with each other in public, the alone moments are tender, slower and more loving. I rolled out of bed at 1 am and headed home, he called me about 15 minutes into my drive to just to talk to me as I drove. God I wish I could have spent the whole night with him, it's been a while since we have had that.
Hugs to everyone who is finding their relationships hard at the moment, I hope that all of you find peace within yourselves and with your relationships.

Hi who_what,
That is so sweet! Thanks for sharing this, sometimes we do need more positive and happy stories!! It helps to remind us why we're doing this...
I just had to say that your husband sounds very sweet to let you go out with "girlfriends" after realizing you had a hard day at home with the kids... sounds like you have two great men in your life.