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just venting
| Mon, 04-12-2004 - 10:39pm |
As I had said before, My H found out about my A. I told him about it. Couldn't take the lyeing anymore. And of course he suspected it.
Well, here's the update. I stayed the last 4 nights with the om. And we had a blast. Hi mother was admitted to the hospital last Thursday. So, I stayed for support. Yes, My H knows where I was and isn't the least bit happy about it. And I can't blame him.
Saturday night I came home wasn't planning on staying with the om. But when I arrived at home H was a little upset. Asked where I was and I told him. He started to ywll and used his body to block me from leaving. Scared the crap out of me. SO, I called the police and they didn't do a thing. THey said our stories were to different. And they asked If I could find a place to stay the night. So I called om and he waited up for me. I didn't get there till 2am. We sat up and talked and he let me know that I need to do something about my situation. Which I know I must do. Me and H have talked about divorce but The thought of not having him makes me sick. But thinking about being with him forever is a little sickening too. I think I should give him a chance or better yet him give me one. How many men stick with there wives when something like this is going on?
Not trying to babble. But it gets more complicated. The om confessed to me that he's in love. I didn't expect to hear those words. But I did 3 xs that night. We were drinking cocktails and he hasn't said it again :( He said he couldn't believe that he said it. But then he said it again. I dunno maybe the liquor. But they say you speak the truth while drinking. ANyways, I think I'm in LOVE with om. In fact I know I am. I want to spend every spare moment with him. And he wants the same. Today I left his house this am and called later pm and he asked what I was going to do and acted a lil strange about it. I could tell he wanted me to stay again. But I just can't do it tonight even though I want to more than anything. I guess is what I'm saying is I love om and miss him more and more each moment. CHeesey I know. But yet I find myself thinking about H feelings and the thought of H with another woman makes me sick. Selfish I know...
Thanks for letting me vent... Have a great week!
