kind of spent my birthday with him

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Registered: 10-03-2008
kind of spent my birthday with him
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Tue, 02-17-2009 - 9:04am

he text me Happy Birthday, and I text him back, thanks...then we somehow ended up on the phone from about 10am until 10:45pm, but it was on and off all day ..but, for hours at a time...We decided to meet this week and exchange V-tines Day gifts...We talked for 527 minutes the day after my bday and Monday text all day...We are not back together and have still agreed that we have to do what's right for the both of us..we still contend that...But we still both love each other very much and are still very much in love with one another...We had no connection before we got together like lovers, didn't know one another from the past nothing..and we know that this is on US..we did it to ourselves...I know when meet I will probably CRY my eyes out and get weak...but I do want to see him of course and I am going to....of course he and my DS are still good with one another...same ole same ole with them as if nothing has even changed between me and XAP/friend/BF/whatever you wanna call him/XAP again...i never knew that once you get on the rollercoaster jump off, there's an urge to get back on...


what did OBXBELL tell me..I WAS ADDICTED and I denied denied denied..well OBXBELL you were right...sorry I apologize for arguing you down..but you were right...we are NOT getting back together..but we are still very addicted to one another....

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Registered: 10-03-2008
Wed, 02-18-2009 - 8:45am

and you were right about me....i do have to learn at my own pace..my daddy once said that a hard head makes a soft behind and i was daddy's princess...he let me learn my own lessons....probably sort of the reason i'm so enamored with XAP/friend...he treats me like my daddy did....


it's not that XAP/friend does anything wrong to me either...he doesn't lie, he doesn't try to deceive me, he doesn't let me lift a finger or pay a dime for anything, fixes things around my house, my truck, takes care of DS...it's just that we shouldn't be in this, its forbidden, torrid, wrong all at the same time..and i cannot explain a thing about it when it comes down to it...obxbell was right...i'm addicted...right now it's probably like a crack head going back to smoking weed or drinking heavily....UGH...but, i am glad you and TGR and justice are here on the boards for support

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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