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| Sat, 07-24-2010 - 8:10am |
Hi all,
Well finally met AP last night he came and picked me up and we went to a quite place for a drink. I am not a big drinker but found I had to have a few drinks beforehand to calm myself. He also admitted that he had a drink as well for dutch courage LOL
The conversation started with us just catching up on everything with each other. He kept staring at me and said I looked really nice, then he just leant over and kissed my neck saying "sorry I just had to do that". Anyway the conversation turned to whathad happened and he admitted that me saying that if he went back it was over was part of the reason that he had not contacted me, which I already suspected. He told me that everything he had ever said to me was not lies, that he had intended on leaving. But when push comes to shove he just couldn't leave his children. I told him I totally understand that and was glad he had been honest with me.
He then told me that despite what I

Hi, ali!
I read this post earlier and I wasn't sure how to answer and be supportive.
Hi Jane,
thanks for your reply I spent a lot of time yesterday going over what had been said between me and AP and trying to put things into perspective a bit. I knew it would hurt to see him but I also needed some answers from him.
I know he still loves me and that this has been hard for him as well as me but I respect his decision to stay for his children. I have to get on with my life and not put it on hold by thinking that he may one day leave. The reality is that one day I will get over him and maybe meet someone else. I don't want to be in an A for the next few years wondering if we will get caught, wondering if he will ever leave etc.
I will remain friends with him and know that it will take time to get him out of my system but that is what I need to do. I have not heard from him since which is no suprise really
Many more ((((hugs)))) ali!
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