Lilah..I used your words
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| Tue, 12-16-2003 - 11:52am |
I made up an excuse to email MM and put in the "call me when you get a chance"...no sooner than it was sent, he called.
1. I told him about my theory that if we were to experience the emotions and vibes that have been going on between us, that it'd be much easier to "hide" because we would know there was an outlet coming.
2. I told him what you mentioned earlier to your MM, that this was a no strings attached deal. I didn't expect or want him to leave his relationship, nor did I have plans on leaving mine!
Still...as we get off the phone...it's "we can't, we shouldn't..." he's so afraid of the consequences if we get caught. I told him it's inivitable. Damn..I've NEVER been this aggressive! LMAO. I also tell him as we get off the phone that the door is open if he changes his mind. He says if he changes his mind, I'll be the first to know. I told him I hope I don't have to wait to long to hear from him...in the meantime, I keep whispering in his ear...putting the thought in his head...giving him endless opprotunity to act on what we are both feeling.
Edited 12/16/2003 12:03:48 PM ET by hdcmomma

Edited 3/10/2004 5:02 pm ET ET by geek_chic
Chic...that's what I told him today.. I said, it's all or nothing. I can't allow myself to be strung along waiting for a "sign" from him. That being said...I also left the door wide open and easy for him to 'change his mind'
The line has already been crossed...we might as well get full enjoyment out of it ;)
Edited 12/16/2003 12:16:58 PM ET by hdcmomma
And we almost get to the point where we decide on going there, and then he starts getting worried that he or I might get too emotionally attached, even more so then we already are..it sucks. I feel as if I'm being strung along too. Realisticly, I'm the only one that can end it, and I have tried to end it several times, but we always end up talking again, it really does get emotionally drainning...
THAT'S EXACTLY how I feel.
Laugh![Smiles]()
Edited 12/16/2003 4:48:46 PM ET by hdcmomma