It sounds like you and AP have a VERY firm bond. That's awesome! I can totally feel you when you say that you're adjusting to reduced contact. It is very hard to fill your time, and keep yourself focused on other things, but that is where you are right now.
You and H don't sound too bad either. I am a firm believer that if you stay for the kids, it won't work, but that's just MHO. I think in this situation just based on what I know, I think you should be a cake eater. While it is difficult to concentrate on making a better home life when your heart swells for another that is what you have chosen to do. So you must take the good w/ the bad, but you already knew that, hence your post.
I hope that things go well for you and AP, and H. It can work, but that is what it will be....work. Enjoy every morsel of goodness, and TRY not to sweat the small stuff.
You are being smart about the A and the M.....Remember, just because we have feelings doesn't mean we have to act on them.It sounds like you are choosing to act on reality and not how you feel. Feelings change. Doesn't it feel good to take control of things?
It sounds like you and AP have a VERY firm bond. That's awesome! I can totally feel you when you say that you're adjusting to reduced contact. It is very hard to fill your time, and keep yourself focused on other things, but that is where you are right now.
You and H don't sound too bad either. I am a firm believer that if you stay for the kids, it won't work, but that's just MHO. I think in this situation just based on what I know, I think you should be a cake eater. While it is difficult to concentrate on making a better home life when your heart swells for another that is what you have chosen to do. So you must take the good w/ the bad, but you already knew that, hence your post.
I hope that things go well for you and AP, and H. It can work, but that is what it will be....work. Enjoy every morsel of goodness, and TRY not to sweat the small stuff.