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| Mon, 03-29-2004 - 8:27am |
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Edited 9/24/2004 2:54 pm ET ET by bad_kitty314
Edited 9/24/2004 2:54 pm ET ET by bad_kitty314
| Mon, 03-29-2004 - 8:27am |
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Well, it sounds as though we've had similar weekends. My H cried for me this weekend as well. That is so hard to witness. I mean, he is usually very emotionally strong, and that just broke me apart.
I have come to realize over the past few days, that as much as I love and miss my XMM, he did not love me with the same intensity - oh, I believe he loves me, just not the same. Anyway, I've always been searching for and wondering what it would be like to have someone love me in a way that they would "fall to their knees" for me. Over the past weekend, I found that I've had that all along in my H, I just didn't realize it.
He is as much so, if not more, heartbroken than I am right now. He told me that he has loved me from the first time he laid eyes on me (more than 20 years ago), and that I am his life. He even said, in a moment of exteme dispair, that right now he doesn't even feel like living. We talked about that, and he knows of course that there is much more in his life worth living for - it was just his moment of weakness.
Anyway, I'm here for you anytime, since it looks like we'll both be working on our M - probably for quite sometime. My H does know who my A was with, so I'm just hoping that things don't get ugly. I'm sure we could offer each other moral support during these difficult times.
Thank god for this board. It has saved me more than once today.
Red
Now, I'm in despair over OM, and I can't get him off my mind, and H can't know. I'm beginning to feel numb. I'm ever so grateful for this board...and be a wreck without it!!
Good luck with everything and please let us know what is happening.
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((hugs))
Circe
That statement goes exactly for me too.
"He even said, in a moment of exteme dispair, that right now he doesn't even feel like living."
My husband said the same when driving back the day after the night I divulged everything to him on phone. He said he wished that his car could just meet an accident. I was horrified. It was during one of the days after the confession that I was lying next to hubby and he was asleep and I was holding him from behind and caressing him that I realized that as much as I had feelings for MM, I couldn't imagine a day in my life when I wouldnt be able to hold my husband or not be able to make love to him.
PG
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