No its not just you. I feel like I can get a bit posessive and stalkerish myself at times. I also get jealous tantrums but never let him know it. My AP makes me feel great, wonderful, beautiful and fills the emotional void that I've been lacking for a long time.
I'm so addicted to him that it drives me insane. I guess we are all in this boat together and yes I also think of where he's at, whose he with, what he's doing and who he's doing it with.....(((SIGHS))).
Since having A's I always think the worst, which isn't really like me in RL. I think it's what all the sneaking around does to you. Unfortunately, it starts to bleed over and shakes my own self confidence (duh... if you've read any of my posts LOL) I have yet to catch my AP in a lie, however I stalk his wife's FB page and think about him way too much. I usually know things before he tells me and he has always told the truth. Doesn't make me calm down though..time to worry about the next thing...
The A has definately brought out aspects of my personality that I always knew were there but either ignored or was able to control.
These days my obsessive thinking gets away from me, my natural tendency to worry is also a tad out of control, and I am always escaping into day dreaming more often (ie ignoring my wonderful RL while I fantasise about a future that wouldnt actually make me happy).
So yeah- all this craziness for a few stolen moments of thrill and excitement- sounds like a good deal (NOT).
AP has been VERY busy this week and I couldnt stand checking my ph every 5 mins so I lied and said I was on a course yesterday. First thing this morning there was a nice text- but thats it. Nothing since.
So yeah, a bit like you, Im not happy this week so I hope he makes our coffee on Friday a good one. Im about a hair's width from ending it - although I know Im not thats strong... yet :)
Hi Lellibee,
No its not just you. I feel like I can get a bit posessive and stalkerish myself at times. I also get jealous tantrums but never let him know it. My AP makes me feel great, wonderful, beautiful and fills the emotional void that I've been lacking for a long time.
I'm so addicted to him that it drives me insane. I guess we are all in this boat together and yes I also think of where he's at, whose he with, what he's doing and who he's doing it with.....(((SIGHS))).
Much peace & Love,
Rayne
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Hi lell
The A has definately brought out aspects of my personality that I always knew were there but either ignored or was able to control.
These days my obsessive thinking gets away from me, my natural tendency to worry is also a tad out of control, and I am always escaping into day dreaming more often (ie ignoring my wonderful RL while I fantasise about a future that wouldnt actually make me happy).
So yeah- all this craziness for a few stolen moments of thrill and excitement- sounds like a good deal (NOT).
Hahaha Im the same Jane
AP has been VERY busy this week and I couldnt stand checking my ph every 5 mins so I lied and said I was on a course yesterday. First thing this morning there was a nice text- but thats it. Nothing since.
So yeah, a bit like you, Im not happy this week so I hope he makes our coffee on Friday a good one. Im about a hair's width from ending it - although I know Im not thats strong... yet :)