Lousy Convo with MM
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Lousy Convo with MM
| Fri, 05-21-2004 - 4:20pm |
MM has been great and we have been talking and emailing like crazy! We always have NC on the weekends so I always try to leave Friday afternoons on a real positive. So Mm called me on his way home and he was busting on me a bit more than usual. Then he said something negative about my M. He also said something like "if we were married we'd kill each other" . I couldn't help myself and I said that I really didn't appreciate him criticizing my M. (BTW we are F/wb and will never be more). I said I think b/c of the nature of our relationship it would be best to keep all negative comments to ourselves (I wanted to say I NEVER want to hear anything about you M good or bad). He apologized and agreed. But then he said he wasn't really serious and sometimes he feels like he has to tiptoe around me. I just said nothing. He was then making jokes and said I am just trying to break the tension here. Things ended fine but I feel like crap. I know I am going to think about this all weekend and tonight I am supposed to have a night out with H which I need to do. I have been putting way too much thought into this A and I need to concentrate a bit on my M. I know I am reading into things. I want to email him but I should probably just let it go!

Don't worry briatan, you MM has probably forgotten about it. Let it go and just enjoy your weekend.
You sound like me when you made the comment about working on your M. Although I am not in love with my H, I love him dearly as a friend and I am trying to make the most of our M. It hurts to think that my MM and I may never be together but I realize that I don't have it so bad at home. If anything, I feel that it helps me appreciate both relationships for what they are. It's just that we have to get used to those random feeling of desparation, sadness, etc. when we realize that we may never be able to share a permanent life with our MM.
Enjoy your weekend and try to forget about the comments. Just concentrate on his realization that he shouldn't have said it and his attempt to make it up to you at the end of the conversation:-)
Hugs and a big thanks to you both!