So you said you have an ex-H which means you obviously got out of one bad relationship. For what? To enter another toxic relationship with a man and become his mistress. You should really ask yourself why you want to be a good mistress and not want a true and honest relationship where your man love you and only you.
Do you really want to settle for the crumbs that he has to offer you? Don't you think you deserve more than that? If not, you need to ask yourself why you don't feel you deserve the very best. If you don't like being a second class mistress, stop yourself from being one.
So you said you have an ex-H which means you obviously got out of one bad relationship. For what? To enter another toxic relationship with a man and become his mistress. You should really ask yourself why you want to be a good mistress and not want a true and honest relationship where your man love you and only you.
Do you really want to settle for the crumbs that he has to offer you? Don't you think you deserve more than that? If not, you need to ask yourself why you don't feel you deserve the very best. If you don't like being a second class mistress, stop yourself from being one.