Missing AP and confused

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Registered: 08-07-2009
Missing AP and confused
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Fri, 07-02-2010 - 7:50pm

AP and I are supposed to be ending things after a week we will be spending together in Sept. He wants to quit because he is scared of getting caught and having to start all over. He says he feels no guilt. He's been trying to pull back over the last couple of months so it's easier to deal with when it happens. Well in the last week or two he's saying he wants to see me, asks me to email him while he's working, and letting his feelings out more. He's never been able to stop at the line before and I really don't think he will be able to this time either. He told me how he's going to be able to see me after Sept, and how then we can let our spouses know we are still talking (we're all friends). The plan was to go back to friends, I'm not sure how long we can hang out alone with nothing happening?

Anyway, he's gone for a 4 day long weekend and I miss him like crazy. I will get to see him for an hour or so early next week, then nothing for 3 weeks. Out of those 3 he's gone on holidays for 1 so I don't know if I'll be able to talk to him at all. The last couple of days has really hit home how much I love him, I don't know what I'll do when we have to stop. I'm hoping he changes his mind after our time together.

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Registered: 05-03-2010
Fri, 07-02-2010 - 8:26pm

Wish I had some advice for you.

anotherseyes

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Registered: 08-07-2009
Fri, 07-02-2010 - 9:52pm
THanks another. AP is one of my best friends. We were friends for many years before we started an A. I think I can handle going back to being friends, but I really don't think he will stay there long. We started off very intense and both tried leaving our marriages, neither of us had the heart to go through with it so we both ended up staying with our spouses.