MM w/kids, M me with DH..help

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Registered: 04-24-2003
MM w/kids, M me with DH..help
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Sat, 08-30-2003 - 11:10am
Last nite was DH's brother's wedding. It was great, but as soon as i saw the photographer i knew i was in trouble. It was this amazing man that i had this instant connection with about 4 years ago. Problem was then we met at his father's wedding. His father's marriage to my Dh's mother. Yesterday i saw him and melted. Just played it cool cause i really didn't think he'd be interested. We kinda made small talk with eachother about his wife, whom i met years ago and his new baby, etc.. but i just couldn't look him in the eye. It was just strange. Then we got to talking with everyone, and he remembered some things about that first time we met, and we laughed etc..but i really wouldn't have guessed there was more. I joked about going for a walk and he said, i'll go, as soon as we cleared the buliding we were holding hands. we walked in silence, and when we got far enough just held eachother tight.

It felt so natural, and i dunno, just difficult. I said i have to get back, DH will miss me, i know that, and he was saying that this wasn't anything he planned or imagined. I wanted to kiss him so bad, but told myself its better not to, not now, he kissed my forehead, and we headed back.

The rest of the nite just talking etc.. with everyone, and him. I put reminders in his mobile, little notes everyday till mid oct,... and he was already thinking of ways to come to see me. We are about a 3 hr plane ride away from eachother. but i watched him, and was just loving seeing him work, and knowing we had this 'secret'. When it was time to leave we walked again, and promised to talk soon.I don't have anything from him, no phone, no email, nothing, and wanted it that way. it would just kill me to know that i can reach him so i won't think of it.

His wife called twice when we were talking, and he talked to his daughter, and its not that i felt guilty, i am married, to a dear man, but something is missing, and with OM this connection started years ago, it never died out really, i just never expected it. If he comes to where I live, i promised him a great time. I don't want to be his wife, just 'f' his brains out. I almost did yesterday, but am glad i waited. We shall see, maybe i won't ever hear from him again, and maybe i will, but butterflies are something even today i can't get rid of...

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sat, 08-30-2003 - 3:04pm
What do you need help with, Mikko?

Sounds like you know exactly what you want/expect out of this R, and if you get it - great. And if not, you're prepared for that too.

It sounds like you got to enjoy a great evening. Hold on to that.

Oh, and let us know if he DOES come to see you...

-lily