MM w/kids, M me with DH..help
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| Sat, 08-30-2003 - 11:10am |
It felt so natural, and i dunno, just difficult. I said i have to get back, DH will miss me, i know that, and he was saying that this wasn't anything he planned or imagined. I wanted to kiss him so bad, but told myself its better not to, not now, he kissed my forehead, and we headed back.
The rest of the nite just talking etc.. with everyone, and him. I put reminders in his mobile, little notes everyday till mid oct,... and he was already thinking of ways to come to see me. We are about a 3 hr plane ride away from eachother. but i watched him, and was just loving seeing him work, and knowing we had this 'secret'. When it was time to leave we walked again, and promised to talk soon.I don't have anything from him, no phone, no email, nothing, and wanted it that way. it would just kill me to know that i can reach him so i won't think of it.
His wife called twice when we were talking, and he talked to his daughter, and its not that i felt guilty, i am married, to a dear man, but something is missing, and with OM this connection started years ago, it never died out really, i just never expected it. If he comes to where I live, i promised him a great time. I don't want to be his wife, just 'f' his brains out. I almost did yesterday, but am glad i waited. We shall see, maybe i won't ever hear from him again, and maybe i will, but butterflies are something even today i can't get rid of...

Sounds like you know exactly what you want/expect out of this R, and if you get it - great. And if not, you're prepared for that too.
It sounds like you got to enjoy a great evening. Hold on to that.
Oh, and let us know if he DOES come to see you...
-lily