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| Thu, 09-18-2003 - 8:43am |
Since being back in touch with him, we've only had phone conversations and me writing him letters. We haven't seen each other in over three years, before I got married and ended our then affair. Now we're takling about getting together in November and I'm freaking out because I've had two children since then and, needless to say, I'm not exactly in the same shape I was back then. Of course, he's stated that he doesn't expect me to look the same, yet he keeps bringing up the old days when I was all skinny and cute. And that, of course, makes me a little self concious and I've been working out like a mad woman ever since.
It's weird because part of our connection has always been that I was always so comfortable and free with him and I'm hoping it won't feel different this time. And also, my seeing him again after all this time will probably totally mess with my head. I aready think of him all day. So, how do I keep myself grounded and not lose sight of things? I mean, I think it's safe to say that our time has passed as far as having a serious one on one relationship (except for maybe later on in life when our children are grown and we're old and gray) but I can't help but wonder what could have been.
Man oh man!
T.
| Thu, 09-18-2003 - 9:01am |
| Thu, 09-18-2003 - 9:06am |
