my anniversary is today!!

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Registered: 05-16-2003
my anniversary is today!!
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Fri, 02-27-2004 - 6:43pm
Today is me and H 5th anniversary, but all I keep thinking about is mm.. I'm listening to all sexual songs right now, and He's all I think about. H brought home flowers and a card, but he didn't have to. I didn't get him anything. Maybe I feel this way cause I know our m isn't working. I guess I have to wait it out till we don't pay for our daughter's preschool, and I don't have a car payment. I know I sound like I"m using him, but I can't afford to live on my own with dd. Rent is higher than our Mort. in our part of the country..

Should I feel guilty about thinking about mm today? (we have a sexual A only)! 1 yr. beg. of this month!!

Chrissluver

Gina
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Registered: 02-03-2004
Sun, 02-29-2004 - 11:23am
Chris -- life's too short for long-term guilt... but you should be thinking about wasting that short life. There will always be a reason why the time is wrong. I'm not encouraging you to get divorced, but I'm encouraging you to look at why you stay. Move, get a second job (or another one), or make your marriage better. Please don't hold dd as the reason you stay. Eventually you may start to resent her. I feel the sadness behind your note. It must be a handful to hide.