my heart was pounding hard and fast...
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my heart was pounding hard and fast...
| Thu, 11-13-2003 - 2:17pm |
for about a minute. om, who hasn't contacted me since he moved a month ago, came on messenger just a few minutes ago. i held back the urge to message him...figured i'd wait for him..then he logged off :(:(:(:(:(
now i'm kicking myself in the butt thinking i should have messaged him.

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Edited 9/20/2004 1:51 pm ET ET by seansluv
To me it seems like a slap in the face that he logged on and didn't say anything. I'm sure he saw your screen name and my impression is that he logged off suddenly because he saw you online and didn't want you to say anything to him. I'm very glad you didn't initiate any contact with him, as it may have only upset you further.
My apologies if I'm mixing up scenerio's here, but didn't you mention in a previous post that online OM suddenly moved to a city where a previous ex-gf lived, and that the last time he didn't contact you was because he was involved with this ex-gf??? Isn't it possible that he is involved with this ex-gf again??? Perhaps, even living with her??? This could be an explanation for his sudden log off when he saw your screen name. After all, he can't have her knowing about you.
I really think you should close the door on this one. His lack of contact upon moving is inconsiderate to say the least. I think his silence is screaming loudly that he no longer wishes to continue his interactios with you.
During the healing process, enjoy your H. You've really expressed how wonderful he can be, so focus on those wonderful qualities. I hope that by the time your anniversary vacation is here, you are able to simply sit back and enjoy the time with your H.
Best wishes to you.
Annika
Brightest Blessings, Annika
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