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| Thu, 01-08-2009 - 7:54pm |
I've been lurking on this board for a couple of months now – truly a blessing to have found it.
| Thu, 01-08-2009 - 7:54pm |
I've been lurking on this board for a couple of months now – truly a blessing to have found it.
First of all, Welcome! Not that I'm ever happy to see someone else join the "club" since it can be a wicked ride but you have found the right place for support.
As far as answers...I think the only one that can give those to you would be your MM. I think if I learned nothing else in the year I have been on the rollercoaster it is that without straight out honest communication an A is doomed from the start. I know that is such a contradiction since the very nature of an A is secrets and lies, but for whatever reason the more open and honest that AP and I have been with each other the better the relationship is. If you can't trust your AP with absolutely everything it isn't worth it.
I think you were right to tell him how you feel. If you want to end it now tomorrow would be a great time to do that. If you aren't happy at the end of the conversation then maybe that is the best course of action.
The heart is a tricky organ isn't it? It can certainly muddy the waters for us. It takes awhile to get "comfortable" in an A and then the sheer nature of it lends itself to uncertainty and second guessing which is always difficult.
As I am sure you have read over that past couple of months...A's are not for the faint of heart. Be very aware that if you jump this hurdle that there will be another and another and another. You may get better and more confident in clearing the hurdles, but they will be there nonetheless.
Best of luck to you tomorrow and here is that((( hug ))) that you needed. Be sure to check back and let us know what happened.
welcome, missbennett.
and nowwhat did give good advice.
Mrs.
Edited 1/9/2009 2:56 am ET by mrs.smithandjones