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| Wed, 09-24-2008 - 5:38pm |
Hi all!! I have been a lurker on this board for about 2 weeks. I used to post under other boards before but this is where I feel I belong now. I am so deeply involved in an EA with a coworker right now that I just can't see straight. I am single 2 DD and he is M 2 DS. We started off as friendly coworkers and I got to know him better he told me that he wasn't happy at home (you know the usual story) they fought all summer she asked for a D he stayed for the kids, etc.... Anyway, at some point it crossed the line in emails with

I, too, am involved in an EA with a coworker, someone with whom I work very closely, too!
Thanks for responding. I'm just very confused and my mind is running everywhere. I'm sorry I was just typing and I get so flustered when I even think about him!! I am single and available. He is married (unhappily) and is not leaving right at this point because he wants to stay for his kids. They had a rough summer of fighting and right now he wants the peace. He tells me EVERYTHING that I have ever wanted to hear except of course that he is free. I do think that maybe he might be free eventually, but of course there is no guarantee and I don't want to wait. I feel miserable because my ex-H cheated on me numerous times and I know what that feels like and I swore that I would never do that and here I am. I am so CRAZY about him and honestly I don't want to end it because I want him in my life. It's just those lonely nights when I wish I could talk to him and I can't because he is at home with his WIFE!!
Because he is a coworker this makes it very difficult. I'm sorry to hear that you were on again off again and how that affected you at work. I don't want that either. I can't imagine how it would be between us. I would probably be the moody one. I can already relate to the thrilling and exciting but depressing part. I am so excited to see him everyday and every night when I fall asleep alone thinking about him I get depressed. I want so much more for myself.
Hey there.
Hi and welcome!
thank you so much for the advice. I am so torn by what I know I should do and what I know I really want to do. It will be easier to get out now. I know I'll be a wreck! I will try to gather the strength to move on with my life. You are right maybe a few nights out with my girlfriends and I'll be on my way...