NC coming to an end - I hope. . . .

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Registered: 03-10-2004
NC coming to an end - I hope. . . .
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Fri, 03-26-2004 - 11:46am
MM


Edited 10/19/2004 2:11 pm ET ET by whatnow04
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Registered: 09-09-2003
Fri, 03-26-2004 - 11:54am
I know exactly how you feel. I was so sure I would hear from MM this week, but nothing. I just can't figure these guys out.

I mean, last time we talked was last week. And we talk about how long we want this A to go on. I asked him if he's still okay with it all, he says yes. Then he says we should get together this week.

And then ... nothing. What does it mean?? I just don't get how they can change their minds so many times about whether its right or wrong.

I have never waivered in my decision. I made my bed and I am ready to sleep in it (in more ways than one!!)

But really, I walked into this with both eyes open, and I have never regretted a minute of it.

I don't know why they get the guilt complex every once in a while, I guess because they are decent guys. But I am a decent woman too, and still I would NEVER lead him along like this!! Just venting, not a great day for me either.

TGIF though. Once I get home with H and kids, I'll hopefully forget all about MM until Monday morning. Take care!!

Dusty
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Registered: 03-10-2004
Fri, 03-26-2004 - 12:13pm
Argh...I totally know what you guys mean. Why are they so hot one minute and so cold the next while we are always hot? I just don't get that. My MM and I work together, so I go in every day wondering if he's going to be hot today or not or if we're going to have some fun or not. It just gets so frustrating. I just hate feeling like MM gets to call all the shots and make the move, because when I do, he's usually busy, but when he makes the move I'm always available. I guess I shouldn't be so available to him, but I really want to spend time with him. It's so hard because I'll try not to email and I don't call him anymore b/c he wasn't picking up my calls, but everytime he calls, it's once in a blue moon, and I get so excited. I'm off work today and I don't live far from work and he's working and I hinted that he could come over, but it's 10:00 and I haven't heard anything yet and just have a feeling I won't since he did not say he would yesterday and kind of danced around it. I just get so frustrated and wonder why I continue the A sometimes, but then he'll say/do something sweet and then I get reeled in again. I'm trying not to be so emotionally involved but as you can see I'm not very successful at that. Sorry, I just needed to vent. I just get so frustrated all the time....


ibc

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Registered: 08-29-2003
Fri, 03-26-2004 - 1:31pm
Hey i just wanted to respond about this topic, i totally agree with yall on so many levels, especially with ibeconfused, that sounded exactly like what i am going thru. I try to be strong and tell myself not to email or call him since we doesnt pick up the phone when i call (probably cause he isnt never at home). I think it's really hard on me during the week b/c i am a stay at home mom and so i have to try to do housework, spend time with my son, anything just to get my mind off of it so i dont have to think about it b/c the more i sit and dread on it the more i get frustrated too. The weekend is a little bit better b/c i stay busy with the H and my son so i dont really have time to think about it even though he is always in the back of my mind like thinking what is he doing right now and etc. I know yall can relate to that. I just hate that he calls the shots in the relationship, when i am available he is not, when he's available i make the time. I feel sometimes it's only when it's convenient for him but then i cant complain much b/c the day we do see each other, it's his day off so he is trying to run around taking care of his son and doing errands so i should at least be thankful for that right? Well, i am just a little sad today too even though it's a friday. I know tommorrow he'll be on my mind b/c i have a wedding to attend and that's when i'll probably get depressed but i will be ok. I am just going to give him his time to think about us and let him contact me even though i have sent several im's to him, making myself look deseparate but i dont care really. He knows how i feel and i am sure he knows that i want to see him, just wish he would make more time for me since we arent but 45 mins. away from each other. Anyways, i am just venting but wanted to let yall know you arent the only one facing NC.