NC over the Holidays
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NC over the Holidays
| Sun, 12-14-2003 - 11:51am |
I am very much in love with MM...I am single. We used to work together but I quit because rumours were causing problems and he was up for big promotion. I also thought leaving would help me as well. So he just got his promotion and he makes even more time for me then ever. BUT the holidays and all the parties and dinners and plans kept reminding me that I am 2ND PLACE....she gets to go to functions and wake up with him on Christmas. If he REALLY loves me then we should be together....but there are kids (A stepson and a 1 year old). If he left he would have no rights to stepson that he's raised for 8 years.
SO I told him yesterday I wanted a break...atleast through the holidays. No calls, no lunches, visits...NOTHING. He said he understood. So it's day 2....of nothing. For the last 1 1/2 years we have seen each other every day somehow..even if only for a hug at a gas station...and we talk atleast 3-5 times EVERY day. But I'm not all that upset...almost relieved. I feel guilty about that. I HONESTLY, truly love this man and believe he's the love of my life---so why aren't I upset?
I am so confused...if it's easy to get through the next 3 weeks with NC...then should I make it forever?

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