Never thought..........

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Registered: 03-28-2007
Never thought..........
Thu, 09-03-2009 - 3:12am

After reading some of your posts, I see I am not alone. When I got married, I promised myself I would always be faithful to my husband. Low and behold, he cheated on me three times. My H is also an alcoholic and a verbal abuser and I was in a very bad way, low self-esteem, etc. I met my MBF in high school, we were both 16 and at the time were only friends. I ended up dating his best friend instead and didn’t realize that he had a major crush on me. We lost touch and then 35 years later, he found me online. We emailed back and forth, then phone calls and finally, after almost having a nervous breakdown from all the stress of my H, I decided to go visit him. (I live in the west and he lives in the east) From the minute we laid eyes on each other, there was a connection. Since then we have been together 11 times in almost 7 years (I will be going again in a few months). I have friends and family back there so it makes it easy to get away. Am I a stupid fool for doing what I am doing? Probably, but like some of you say, it’s like a fix, like a drug you can’t stop using.