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| Thu, 08-19-2010 - 2:52pm |
Hello Ladies (or men?)
I am new to Ivillage but was referred here via a friend who has been dealing with the same stuff I have. I am a MW with a mess of a marriage and somewhere along the line, this A started. I have been involved in an A before but years ago and before I was married so I was the single one then. Now, all of a sudden, I have found myself drawn to a special MM. I didn't seek it nor did he but something pulled us together being in the same situations at home. We met at the gym...how cliche, huh?
I know where this will likely lead as Ive been there before - heart broken, hurting, seeking more than he can give, etc.. My marriage has been back and forth and not sure if it may end soon but he has no intentions of leaving his...which is okay for now. This is 2mths new. We have seen each other 2 times (both being merely a PA moment) and tonight will be the 3rd. He lives in another state but was traveling when we met. I just have to say, I am on cloud 9. My stomach is in knots. Im excited about the possibility of a new friendship (okay, okay FWB) and he is the sweetest thing every not to mention wickedly HOT and amazing in bed. Part of me wants to enjoy this high but as I have read many other posts on here, not many seem to be enjoying the "highs" of the A but instead many seem to be ending, etc.. and I remember how low I was last time I went thru this 6 years ago. I think I should walk on egg shells. Anyone else out there just met their AP, still feeling that nervous feeling when you know you are going to see AP?

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I still get nerous when I know we are going to be "together". I get butterflies and my stomach is in knots. When we are alone in a room we can set it on fire. Its that HOT & Intense. I'm convinced thats my drug, that's what I'm addicted to. Addicted to him and how sexual he makes me feel....
Much peace & Love,
Rayne
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Hope all goes well for you and AP. Keep us posted!
STILL DO!!!!!
Welcome to MAS caliorbust!
Nope, not in the new butterfly stages, but I can totally remember. Wanna hear something corny? I remember fervently thanking God (weird, huh?) that I was a woman, on the nights before I'd see AP... OMG Thank the heavens that be that I am a WOMAN... LMAO!
You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice. ~Steven D. Woodhull
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Hi Cali.
Me too! After three years just the mere site of him gets my heart pounding, and my knees go weak. When we're together, I am so proud that he's with me, it's an awesome feeling. Yes, even when he's ticking me off, I just think WOW.
I love him and I want him all for myself too.....sigh
benska
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