My advice to you would be to end this now. You have only been with him once, and you already want more from him,and you said that most likely it is not going to happen. I am currently trying to end my A, and it is extremely hard. Yes, it is great at first, there are so many highs, but when the lows come they are really bad. I've had an A for over a year now, if I could go back I would have not started it. I would've had a one night stand and ended it. You will get very emotionally attached ,and this will effect your M.
My advice to you would be to end this now. You have only been with him once, and you already want more from him,and you said that most likely it is not going to happen. I am currently trying to end my A, and it is extremely hard. Yes, it is great at first, there are so many highs, but when the lows come they are really bad. I've had an A for over a year now, if I could go back I would have not started it. I would've had a one night stand and ended it. You will get very emotionally attached ,and this will effect your M.
Did your H not suspect anything when you didn't come back to the room until 5AM?
Has anything new happened since you posted this?