New here: Confused about MM's behavior..
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| Sat, 03-27-2004 - 6:42pm |
He couldn't have felt too guilty, though, because he called me 30 mins later after leaving my apartment to check and see if I was feeling ok about it, and to reassure me that he wasn't upset with me, just himself. Since then, we have backed off actual sex and have regressed back to plain ole oral sex, cuddling, etc.
Up until the middle of this past week, I've been feeling really good about our situation. We talk everyday with very few lapses, he's told me he loves me, and he's even started including me in weekend time where as before that was off limits. However, starting this week, I've noticed a little bit of distance from him. By distance I mean shorter conversations, less intensity to our conversations, and decreased physical contact on his part. This morning he called me to tell me he had to cancel our plans to see each other today. :( We had planned to spend a couple of hours together under the guise of him running around town to do some errands, but I guess his alibi fell through. It would have been the first Saturday together. He's still as sweet as ever though, which is part of my confusion...
I'm not sure where this is coming from: residual guilt from the sex? An inevitable fizzling out of the intensity? "Overexposure" because we spent the last 3 straight days together, all day? Or just his own personal issues?
He's been feeling really depressed the last couple of weeks because he just got laid off, and I assume the problems at home aren't helping. The other day he mentioned to me a general dissatisfaction with life in general/himself. He seemed so unhappy. :(
I hurt for him. This is my best friend- we've known each other for years, and have only recently allowed our relationship to progess to this level. I don't know what's going on with him, or what to do. Am I being paranoid? Should I back off and give him some space? Unfortunately with him, he can sometimes interpret giving him space as pulling away, which makes HIM pull away, etc. etc.

Let's hope for the both of our sake's that we don't share the fate of our favorite star-crossed lovers!