New twist to my situation..a little long
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| Thu, 09-11-2003 - 6:29am |
A new twist has resurfaced for me....let me give a brief background...
H and I have been together forever....since high school and we went to college together. During my junior year, I became closer with a male college friend and during one study session (I was his sociology tutor), things went a step further. We continued to see each other on and off over the next few years, until I moved away. Even after I got married, we would continue to keep in contact through very sporadic phone calls and e-mails, but the spark was always there.
OM and I connected in a way that H and I never did, and probably never will. OM knows me better than I know myself...I've always been able to tell him everything...he knows my thoughts, and I know his. And without going into details, he has allowed me to explore sides of myself that H would never even consider. Not only do I consider him my closest friend, I truly believe that he is my soulmate.
Fast forward to yesterday....out of the blue, I receive an e-mail from him. He's coming to town at the end of October...can we get together. Unfortunately, I will be out of town for business, but we are trying to arrange to meet sometime soon. (He still lives in my hometown, and I'm 5 hours away....) Late last night, he called. When I heard his voice, I melted inside. We talked for hours...reminiscing about all of our encounters, envisioning future encounters and the like....we also talked about other things, my marital situation and his....he filed for divorce earlier this year after a long drawn-out process. He and his W (who is also a friend of mine, and was a bridesmaid in my wedding) had been having some serious difficulties (not related to our friendship)....and he moved out.
Everyone in our circle of friends, our families, and even H knows that OM and I have been very good friends ever since college -- but they don't know HOW good friends we are. I asked him what prompted him to call, and he said that he knew I needed him -- I made no mention of my situation in any of our e-mails and never mentioned it until after he said this.
Anyway...I'm rambling...I know that if the opportunity presented itself again, I would take advantage of it. Thanks for letting me ramble...I needed to get this out there. I don't have anyone else I can talk to about this -- except OM. How funny is that?
~ T
