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Registered: 04-26-2004
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Mon, 04-26-2004 - 9:13pm
hi all. i'm a new kid on the block here. i need help badly. i'm currently not married or involved with anyone except my married former coworker. p a wonderful man, and to be honest, i'm not really even sure how we got started. we basically started off as friends. i left the company he still works for last summer, and we just began calling and e-mailing all day long. then we started having lunch together several days a week. we went christmas shopping together, and spent time away from work together quite a bit, usually drinks or running errands together after work. i still remember the first time he kissed me. i'd never been kissed like that before, and i loved it. we share intimate moments and thoughts together, and i dream of being sexually intimate with him. but somehow he stops the line at kissing and groping. i'm so frustrated here. i know he cares about me and wants to be with me, physically.

he says he isn't happy with his marriage. he hasn't been for as long as i've known him and a little over a year ago, his wife went off the pill without telling him and got pregnant to help their marriage. he wasn't at a place in his career where he wanted another child at that time. granted he loves the baby now, but now he has the added strain of not one, but two children on him, not to mention the unhappiness with his wife and his determination to be successful at his job, something i totally understand and support him in. but he won't leave her. i've never asked why not because that isn't my business. i'm just so frustrated right now because last week he got a very expensive cell phone bill and said his wife asked him why it was so high.

i want to be with this man so much. i don't want to necessarily be in a relationship with him though. i have so much going on in my own life right now to worry about a typical boyfriend, but i still want to pursue an affair with this man. he's really good to me, even going so far as to get a vasectomy. this was for him as much as it was for me. because of health reasons, it's best that i don't have children, nor do i particularly want children, but he didn't have to do that at all. so my point of my long rambling is...how long were y'all involved in the affair befor the actual sex commenced? and did your mm's shy away from it at first or were y'all the ones holding him off?

thanks so much in advance. none of my friends understand my issues with p or where i'm coming from. i'm so glad to find other women in my own situation.

thanks,

Lucky_me227