New....where do I begin

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Registered: 05-27-2003
New....where do I begin
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Thu, 04-29-2004 - 11:26am

My story is a long and convoluted one, I will try to get to the point. I have been married for almost 4 years, but we have been together for 7.5. We have a 10 month old daughter. I had an A early in our marriage. I didn't sleep with the guy but we did enough to cause damage to my relationship with my H. A few years ago I met a friend of a friend and just fell for him on the spot. We have been physical a few times but have never slept together. We have maintained a close friendship over the years. Lately my H and I have gone through some difficult things and I personally am working through a deep depression. Well, my friend has stayed close and knows all about my troubles. He is one of the few people in my life that I trust. I can open up to him in ways that I can't to anyone else, including my H. We flirt and joke about sex and we have made out a few times (wow!). He is a person I could easily fall in love with if I let myself. I am planning on separating from my H (for so many reasons). Anyway, yesterday I sent my friend a flirty text message (we text each other a lot) but he never responded. By the way I can totally relate to all the obsessing queens out there! Now I'm worried that I scared him off. I don't want to jump into a relationship with him but I also don't want to run him off. I care about him a lot and he holds a special place in my heart. I can see him in my life in the future. What do I do? I have been fighting to not call him or text message him but it is so difficult. I want to talk to him so bad and find out if he is mad at me. But I also don't want to be needy or desperate.


I just want to scream!!

Karen
~Fake it 'til you make it~

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Registered: 04-23-2004
Thu, 04-29-2004 - 12:15pm

We can totally understand your fear in this.

~Flirty~