No contact sucks
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| Thu, 08-21-2008 - 1:46pm |
I know it's for the best, especially because I'm trying to figure out what to do with my marriage, but no contact sucks. It sucks even worse when he doesn't know you are married and your off and on friendship/dating has gone on for 3 years and no matter what he said before and while you were with him you are no contact because he just hasn't called you (You know, he's simply just not that into me). I didn't really believe the things he said. I didn't really think he's never wanted to be with anyone as much as he wanted to be with me right then. I really didn't believe that he likes me so much it scares him. I'm not totally delusional, I know these are lines, but they felt good to hear esp with no affection at home.
It wasn't bothering me so much before today because he is kind of a runner. The last time we hooked up when I was separated he didn't call for a while and then we made plans and I didn't really hear from him again. I know that's his stupid personality and I figured he'd do it this time too. It's just the next day this time he called me and texted me so I got slightly thrown off by that. Anyway, it's bothering me today because I was just cleaning out my voice mail and there were two messages from him and he sounds so happy and shy and cute and really really wanted me to call back.
I'll just keep telling myself it was for the best, but I know you guys can relate, silence sucks.
FTR when I say hook up I mean hang out and make out, we've never had sex, not that it matters I just wanted to be clear about the situation.

Well that's the thing Goddess, he doesn't even know he's in one. I'm a big liar.
Of course after I post this, during lunch he texts me "sorry life's been so busy I miss you!" Now I'm back to the point where I have to tell him what's really going on.
Why so complicated? I did this to myself.