Is No News Good News ???
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| Mon, 11-03-2003 - 3:47pm |
My paranoia and NOT KNOWING is making me crazy. I know I have to let this go. The hard part is that I really do love him. We've been spending time together for a year and a half. Its more than a simple sexual encounter. We truly have feelings for each other. I know the dialogue "she meant nothing" "it was nothing" "I never cared for her". That's the part that breaks my heart the most. But I know he is doing what he must do.
I feel so incredibly stupid for allowing this to happen. I/WE should have known better. It was bound to happen eventually right? My motivation now is to protect MY family. I can't trust that he will be able to do that. I would like to believe that he will, but his options may be limited too.
I keep telling myself that "its his issue now" "they're issue now" ..... but my heart aches for him and what he's going through. And for her too. She was innocent in all this. And I'm certain that as scared as I am right now, she feels her world is crashing down around her.
