Not doing so well...
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Not doing so well...
| Tue, 09-02-2003 - 11:27am |
hey ya all! I had a really hard weekend - very lonely - even tried to get in contact with MM and was unsuccessful! and yet I feel like he COULD have returned my calls but just choose not to! I know he will argue that once I ask him but I KNOW he was away from the family last night (went out with the guys) and it would have been nice if he'd at LEAST returned my call!
I'm so sad this morning because I feel like I SHOULD walk away and stop putting up with being last place in his life! I hate feeling like I want him SO bad and he can take or leave me! It hurts! :(
But I want to see him and be with him SO bad it's killing me!! :(
Any thoughts, comments, wise advice? LOL

hopefully it's just the long weekend and now that it's over, you can talk to your MM and/or even see him this week. i hope so for your sake.
hang in there sweetie. and feel better soon.
gurl
Sometimes I feel like it's all for HIS convenience this A! And that really doesn't seem fair! :( I mean I am willing to put up with MOST of it but if I am trying to get in contact with him during a time when I NORMALLY wouldn't... I guess I expect him to respect me enough to find a way to return my call! :*( Am I being too hard?
Yup, I've been where you are too. I wish I
had wise advice to give, but my heart never
listened to wise advice anyway. Perhaps yours
is more obedient.
I learned that it really doesn't matter how
much I love or want something to be. It has to
be mutual, or it just won't be. I also came to
appreciate that as well. Love is not something
to be imposed, it is at best returned in measure.
I found my feelings ultimately worked against
me. I would and do play it differently now. It
is a much more free and open game, for me. If
my friend chooses to play, that is great. If not,
I just appreciate them on a different level. I
have found this works better for me.
Do not despair, in time this will pass, with him
or without him. The pace may seem glacial but the
progress is inevitable. Like most things
with your body, if it is hurting, something is
sending a message.
Good luck,
ditr
when you talk to him next, let him know (as calmly as possible) that you would like the courtesy of a return call (or message at least), you just missed him so much you needed to hear his voice.
just talk to him, poster.
gurl
all i'm going to say is, in a man's world, it's all about them and a man does not consider "girly" feelings like hurt, upset, remorse, sympathy. in his mind, he hasn't done anything wrong, therefore, he's not going to respond to something he considers "silly".
let go of those hurt feelings and do something for YOU. and give it a few days and communication will be reestablished. then you can tell him not to ignore you again!
hang in there,
gurl