Not your typical affair
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| Wed, 11-05-2003 - 10:32am |
Or maybe it is. I've posted before. Over the summer. But I used a different screenname. Which I prefer not to give. Last time I was here, I'd come in contact with an "old flame" but walked away with no lines being crossed. And I thought that was it for all EMA. And now I'm in this not so typical affair situation. Well, I don't know, maybe it is typical for this age of technology.
Very innocently I met this MM. We started chatting via a messenging service. We met because of a website we have a common interest in. It was very friendly. He is very attractive but he stated he was "happily" married and I had been working on preserving my "perfect" marriage. (Well perfect to everyone but me). We'd been talking almost daily for about a month and then something changed. It is so indescribable. And probably seems insane to someone who's never fallen in love online. It was the day he said "I thought I was happily married until I met you" and that he felt "cheated by fate" everything changed at that point.
So now, we've both admitted our feelings are for each other are love. We're both married with children. And are on opposite sides of the country (which is really the ONLY thing that's kept us from physcially together). Thank God for cells phones and nationwide longdistance! LOL! We do plan on meeting sometime in the future, somehow....I guess what I want to know or hear from is from other online only affairs. And trust me, I realize this is an affair. Right now, it's only an emotional affair...but still an affair. I have given my heart to someone else.
It's hard. It hurts. But at the same time feels so good and right. Just need some BTDT advice.

jen
Just be aware that most of the time we only show the favorable sides of ourselves online as we have that control when we're hiding behind our monitors and keyboards...
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