Nothing really ever happened....

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Registered: 04-22-2004
Nothing really ever happened....
Wed, 05-19-2004 - 11:07pm
Well he showed up about 4:30 this evening. We talked, and hugged, kissed. Basically nothing has changed. Everything is still the same.

I guess he is just confused. He doesn't know what he wants. Who he wants. I will see him in the morning, and then we have a date tomorrow night that has been planned for a little bit now.

I think I am more confused. When I got involved in our affair I was under the impression that he would one day leave his wife. That one day we would be together. Last night I was told a number of things. First was that he was still in love with his wife, but there was more to it than that. When he came over this morning he said that he wasn't sure if it was because he was in love with her, or if he felt like he did because of his children. He said that he often dreads of going home. But he always looks forward to seeing me. And hates to leave me. I make him feel good about himself, I bring out the best in him, and I treat him better than she does or even has in a long time. I told him that I can't imagine being without him. I want to be with him, and stick it out. Only if he wants to be with me because he cares, and not because he doesn't want to hurt me. I told him to take time to clear his head. I feel like I should just step away. But I can't I really can't. I can't turn away from him. I have so much going on in my head

NeeNee