Now the hard part begins
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Now the hard part begins
| Mon, 05-17-2004 - 9:30am |
Just wanted to say thanks to all of you who responded to my posts last week. Your support and well wishes mean more than I can say. I just got back from a long weekend with some girlfriends. I managed to have a pretty good time despite being torn up and miserable inside - it was good to be away and have something else to focus my attention on. But now I'm back and I'm hurting BIG TIME. I miss XMM so much. Everything reminds me of him. And I can't stop expecting an email or a phone call. Of course it didn't help that my H was grumpy and less than enthusiastic when I got home yesterday. Sometimes I wonder why on earth I bother with anything. I know the next few weeks (months???) are going to be very, very hard for me. I know they are hard for XMM too. No doubts here about whether he misses me, etc. - I KNOW that he does. But knowing that doesn't make it any easier. I guess there's nothing to be done except grit my teeth and get through it.
Anyway, I'll stop rambling now. Thanks again so much for everything. I'll be around - and probably on the ending board too.
Peace
GB2

I know you said you were not going to have an affair again, neither am I. No one could replace MM and I have no desire to seek out another.
I am also going to try and work on my M. This past weekend makes 2 in a row I didn't fight with H. So its a good start. I'm trying to think more kindly about my H and trying to concentrate my thoughts on him and not MM.
So far so good, I haven't really thought about MM too much this weekend. Just the odd thought about our times together, they were so good!!
But I really have to move on, so do you. Its tough, but there are people here who can help with some kind words when you're going thru a rough day. So hang in there baby, you'll be okay in the long run!! Take care,
Dusty
I'm so glad that the last couple weekends with your H have been good ones. I don't know what will happen with me and my H. I guess we'll see. I'm trying to figure out if I can still manage to have a good relationship with him knowing that my heart is with XMM. XMM and I talked about this once - he said he felt the same way about his W and wondered the same thing. I guess now we both get to find out.
Anyway, hang in there. Ultimately you are right - we'll be OK.
(((HUGS)))
GB2
Keep yourself busy, focus on things that make you happy. It will take time for the hurt to go away, but it will. More forward with your life, remember the happy times. But most importantly, know there will be more happy times with someone equally as special.
Take care of yourself; body and soul.
I have to remember that, and he would probably never have treated his W this way if they were dating.
Meanwhile, I have H. Which everything is not peachy, but we both agree we need to work on our relationship. So at least I have a little hope there. Anyways, I will keep you updated how its going, and I hope you don't have too hard of a time getting over MM.
Dusty