Now it begins...
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Now it begins...
| Sun, 05-23-2004 - 2:59pm |
Now my long 3 months begins....Ok so just saw Ow. Our last time alone for 3 months. Im soo sad right now. It was one of the best times weve ever had. we just hung out watched tv,hugged and kissed it was a great time. I mean aside from the sex. Its just truly what i want and i cant have it. For a minute i thought about me and her lving here together, being together and i just felt so happy and pulled her close. i think she feels it too. Its just so hard now AND shes leaving for 3 months. im just soo sad im not going to see her. We promised we'd talk at least every few days but we talk every night now. its just going to be soo hard.. ive known it was going to be hard, but now that it seems so final its getting harder> and i know its just the begining. She gave me a mix tape with some of our favorite songs and i gave her something from the first place we were together. Why such joy and pain all at the same time? Why do i care so much? just questions im asking myself more than anything but really needed to vent and express my feelings. Thanks for listening

Peace
GB2
These A's are so hard on us, but if we can compartmentalize them, and live the rest of our lives, it makes it a little better. I have teens and they need me, they are more important than anyone, just as your child is as important than anyone.
Enjoy the good times you have with you OW, live your life to it's fullest when you are away from her. That's what she would want you to do. That is what I want my MM to do, be happy and live his life to it's fullest while we are apart...because I care about him and what good things for him.
Hang in there, and be strong.
Glad to hear that you had the "ideal" day together. I am so happy that you and OW had a chance to spend quality time together before she leaves.
You're not horrible for just going along with your W. I think it's the sad price that you have to pay for the ability to be able to stay in your son's life...until you find that you are ready to leave...which may or may not happen. It's hard, I know.
It's a difficult thing to go through life KNOWING in your heart who your soul mate really is...and it is not the person you are married to. I can't tell you enough how your posts provide a great insight to my MM. If anything, it helps me understand what you are going through and I am able to provide you the type of support that I give my MM.
Hang in there. We are all here for you.