NUMB!!

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Registered: 07-09-2003
NUMB!!
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Mon, 04-05-2004 - 2:32pm
Has anyone ever got to that point, I have been with MM for 4 years, I left my H (for alot of reasons) but I went through my D and now am single. MM still married still same excuses, still same story as it has been for 4 years, we have broke up got back together soooo many times and I now realize that he is just a security thing for me. I am not even sure if I love him anymore. When I see him I cant wait for him to go home to his W, everything he does BUGS me. I dont believe a word he tells me but at the same time I do not even question it anymore, if he does not have time for me the entire weekend now I make other plans and do not get mad. NOW, he gets mad at me for not getting mad he did not have time for me, it used to be he would get angry if I did not understand he is busy and Married, now I understand and have a life and he gets mad, tells me he is not important to me, I do not respecthim because I go out. He has been my life for 4 years and I am tired of it, I am tired of waiting around for him to have time for me, I am enjoying the weather, my kids, my family and he hates that. So many times I have tried to end it and cant, I wonder, do I wish he would so I dont have to. I know there is no future, why do I waste my time why cant I just end it??I never thought I would say this but HIS WIFE CAN KEEP HIM!Why can't I just walk away all together??
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Registered: 02-03-2004
In reply to: fooled2much
Mon, 04-05-2004 - 2:41pm
Exactly! Why can't you just walk away? No ties, no time, no commitment? He's mad because you don't get mad? Honey! Time to wake up and smell the disintegrating relationship. You ended one bad relationship -- you obviously have the courage to start over. Maybe you need to completely start over... without MM and all the baggage. You have the right to be happy. Just claim it.
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Registered: 09-16-2003
In reply to: fooled2much
Mon, 04-05-2004 - 3:29pm
I couldn't agree more with Sister. Fooled. you need drop this MM now!! Not a very healthy relationship in my opinion.