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| Wed, 04-14-2004 - 3:09am |
Guess Rain has really made me realize that this is a very hard move for my man too. He is saying that being the sensitive,loyal man that he is, he doesn't want to hurt anyone. I love my man for those qualities. Guess his space is what he needs right now. I do feel like this means I have to keep giving up what I want. To make him happy. That just doesn't seem right. There was an us ! I wish we could of stayed locked in time where everything seemed easier. But that is not reality. He said he wasn't happy playing on both sides of the fence! I don't know how much longer I can be strong for this. If I only knew what was happening. If he has changed his mind about everything I need to know. I would let him go if that is what he truely wants. I never wanted to hurt him. Only love him.

I know exactly what you mean. I feel the same way.
I have to admire my xMM for wanting to do the right thing. Sometimes it's difficult to overlook our own hurt and sorrow and place ourselves in their shoes. I guess being women, we just figure we're the only ones that are hurting. Rain has opened my eyes to the other side of the fence as well.
We have to be strong in order to keep our "guys" happy. I actually saw a glimpse of my xMM last night. I had dropped off my daughter at dance, then decided to go walking (it was so beautiful out) - as it happened, xMM drove right past me. My heart did the big leap into my throat as usual. After seeing him, of course, I couldn't stop thinking about him. And I just know that it's going to take all of my willpower today not to email - I won't!
Let's be strong together, trouble, maybe we can help each other!
I'll be thinking about you
Take care
Red
Edited 4/14/2004 5:12 pm ET ET by xxx_trouble