Only kissed, but my god what a kiss

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Registered: 03-30-2003
Only kissed, but my god what a kiss
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Tue, 03-10-2009 - 3:25am

Brand new to this board, and new to this "thing" thats starting ...been M for 6 years, together for 13...I think back now and wonder why I ever married him, just thought it was the thing to do. I'm 38 he's 44 now. I met a guy through a mutual friend who's my age, and has almost all the same interests, he's just like me! My H is my polar opposite I swear, well, we've know each other for about a month now, started out online messages, and I found myself taking it the next level* sending text messages,then he wanted to meet, well I couldn't refuse him, I wanted to see him sooo bad! Just the messages alone were enough to make me want to scream ya know. So we met up, when I walked in - he gave me a hug and then he kissed me so hard and with so much feeling I literally melted into his arms, we spent about 2 1/2 hrs together that night, talking and making out (lol) this is all new to me, I'm so over my H it's not funny, but I don't want to hurt his feelings, I never have,,hence I got married.... but the problem with AP is that he has a "baby mama" who he lives with who is much younger than him, he's taking care of his responsibilities - which i totally respect...I could also kick him..he's in a bad situation that he can't get out of either...because of his son, so we're both in the same boat- and we both can't

Dawn
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Registered: 03-06-2009
Tue, 03-10-2009 - 2:13pm

Dawn,

I'm in exactly your shoes, except my AP is married with 2 kids. We've only kissed, but we talk everyday, and I feel myself just getting pulled in. It's exciting and scary and confusing as hell. I actually find myself glad that my AP lives in another state; it's keeping us from rushing into anything before we've had time to explore our feelings. My head tells me to work things out with my husband, my heart tells me to grab on and never let go to my AP.

Let's hope time gives us the answers we so desperately need.

~BTS

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Registered: 03-30-2003
Tue, 03-10-2009 - 9:49pm
AMEN Sister
Dawn
Dawn