I have to say it again... You know I luv ya right!?
That post that you put up was probably the nicest thing that anyone has ever said to me. For real. I...for once..... am speechless......well not completely! But I was for a good minute, and for ME that's an eternity. You have really raised my self esteem w/ what you said. Thank you. Now GIRL about Oprah.....
JUST SAY NO!! Do not click on that link, wheew! That sh*t was brutal! Anytime a big girl puts down a sandwich, just back AWAY.... I think that I really would have left him had I been able to call him. I was just taken aback by the whole thing. I don't know why it hit me so hard. You would have thought it was AP's wife on Oprah. I'm just glad that I had somewhere to turn at the right time.
You were also right about me being a tom-boy type chic. I mean the uniform is cut to fit wrong. No rounding of the curves or tapering at the waist. I mean I am not butch or anything. I have really long hair, and nails, but yeah I have to admit that I can be very hard when I need to be. I am powder puff since all this started w/ AP. I fought AP the entire way. He took me hostage into love. I realize that that sounds crazy, well it was crazy, but it sounds even more crazy telling someone else. I HATED every moment that I missed him, I really HATED it when I said I love you too and beat myself up for it. I kept thinking man why can't I just put him away like the rest. I kept thinking if only I could remove him, w/o killing him, but it was no use. I love him completely, honestly, and unequivocally. It was sad how I could through up a wall as soon as I needed to in the beginning. I thought I was hiding the walls well, but he felt it seems like before I did. Even if I just had my head on his chest watching TV, no talking or anything, and HE WOULD KNOW. The whole thing was kind of freaky. He said he could hear the walls literally slam into place. Man gives me chills. You know I never realized how much child abuse really takes a toll on a personality. It did on me. I am like some kind of emotionally defective person. Now I think the pendulum has swung too far to the other side. It hard to say, because I have never been in this place before.
Well thank you, and tgr for the great things that you said. They made my day.
Well, I find it funny that my AP was actually the one who shared this article with me. Though we are very open and honest with each other we have been very careful in not putting our partners "down" or faulting them
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I have to say it again... You know I luv ya right!?
That post that you put up was probably the nicest thing that anyone has ever said to me. For real. I...for once..... am speechless......well not completely! But I was for a good minute, and for ME that's an eternity. You have really raised my self esteem w/ what you said. Thank you. Now GIRL about Oprah.....
JUST SAY NO!! Do not click on that link, wheew! That sh*t was brutal! Anytime a big girl puts down a sandwich, just back AWAY.... I think that I really would have left him had I been able to call him. I was just taken aback by the whole thing. I don't know why it hit me so hard. You would have thought it was AP's wife on Oprah. I'm just glad that I had somewhere to turn at the right time.
You were also right about me being a tom-boy type chic. I mean the uniform is cut to fit wrong. No rounding of the curves or tapering at the waist. I mean I am not butch or anything. I have really long hair, and nails, but yeah I have to admit that I can be very hard when I need to be. I am powder puff since all this started w/ AP. I fought AP the entire way. He took me hostage into love. I realize that that sounds crazy, well it was crazy, but it sounds even more crazy telling someone else. I HATED every moment that I missed him, I really HATED it when I said I love you too and beat myself up for it. I kept thinking man why can't I just put him away like the rest. I kept thinking if only I could remove him, w/o killing him, but it was no use. I love him completely, honestly, and unequivocally. It was sad how I could through up a wall as soon as I needed to in the beginning. I thought I was hiding the walls well, but he felt it seems like before I did. Even if I just had my head on his chest watching TV, no talking or anything, and HE WOULD KNOW. The whole thing was kind of freaky. He said he could hear the walls literally slam into place. Man gives me chills. You know I never realized how much child abuse really takes a toll on a personality. It did on me. I am like some kind of emotionally defective person. Now I think the pendulum has swung too far to the other side. It hard to say, because I have never been in this place before.
Well thank you, and tgr for the great things that you said. They made my day.
Hi California,
Well, I find it funny that my AP was actually the one who shared this article with me. Though we are very open and honest with each other we have been very careful in not putting our partners "down" or faulting them
That is a great thing that your AP shared it with you, you obvisouly communicate very well
with each other. I don't ask a lot of questions about my AP's W, I just know what he
chooses to tell me and I can kind of figure out the rest. Obviously I am doing something
right or maybe not, it just "is" I guess....:)
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