Painful and wonderful at the same time?
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|Sat, 03-23-2013 - 1:01pm|
3 years ago my AP and I started out as just physical. Recently we "crossed the line" to I love you. It's so intense.
I've been ready to leave my H before I even started the A. My AP has always said he's not leaving his marriage. He says he stays cause he doesnt want to lose half of everything (there is a great amount of wealth involved.. honestly he could EASILY live on half!). He doesnt want to hurt his children and break up his family.
Lately I've considered not seeing him anymore. It hurts so much to love him knowing I will never be able to have him. I know after I leave my marriage and I'm single, that I'll want more from a relationship. I'll need to date men that are available. It will be nearly impossible to fall for someone else when my heart is still loving my AP.
oh gosh... I've been rambling. lol
anyone been thru something like this??