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played and over for good
| Sun, 04-04-2004 - 6:27pm |
Well guys this time I'm serious.It's over.He slept with her in my house.He left with her this evening.He is a dawg but also afraid of what he felt for me.Leonard my h has been wonderful.He held me while I cried over what I did to us and the fact that OM whom I loved played me.But H said you messed him up in the head and he couldn't deal with it so he moved on.We are all supposed to go out clubbing on the 16th.Leonard said that's when it will hit the fan because I'll be all dressed up.
He couldn't look at me today.He knew I was mad and hurt.When he calls if he calls I'm telling him don't come back.He can't spend the night but he can come visit.Maybe not even that NC is best.
He couldn't look at me today.He knew I was mad and hurt.When he calls if he calls I'm telling him don't come back.He can't spend the night but he can come visit.Maybe not even that NC is best.
I wanted to bust him so badly even if it meant I didn't come out smelling like a rose.
I admitted to Leonard that I loved him.Leonard said he knew that that both of us loved each other before it became sexual.We had alot in common and always understood each other.
I never thought another man would fit my body so well but he did.I'll have the memories but I need to eventually let that go too.Now I'll be focusing on working on my marriage and getting the intense passion for Leonardback.Maybe I'll tell him lets go away for a weekend.
I'll never do this again.Now my curiousity about sex with an abledbodied man is satisfied.
I'll stick around because I care about everyone here.Thanks foe all your support.Love ya
Renee

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NG
I have read many of your posts. And if I am correct, your are having a R, your H is quite aware of it, you have had "mange et trois" with OM and H and now you are crying on H shoulder because OM slept with a friend. I don't get this. I'm not being judgemental, I just don't get it.
A lot of us here are so worried about what our outside R's will do to our spouses, that we would do anything to spare them. Whether we are in good M's or not. We have a certain amount of conscious that have us so mixed up, we can't make a decision regarding our own selves. We are too concerned with the happiness of our current partners.
Again, I'm sorry, I'm just trying to understand.
This is a place of support. Maybe it's easier to offer support to those that feel a certain responsibility to those they are hurting. Kind of a double standard, I realize. Maybe I'm trying to rationalize my own deceptful actions. I have no idea. If you've read any of my posts, you will also realize that I am quite screwed up.
I don't know what to suggest to you. I can only imagine the pain that your H must be going through, unless of course, he is into the open M concept and gets turned on by the fact that another man is attracted to his W. Otherwise, he must worship the ground you walk on, and is so distraught at the idea of losing you, that he would be willing to do anything to keep you in his life.
Again, I am not passing judgement - it's only an observation that may be way off the mark. Either way, I feel your pain. I know exactly what it is like to want or be in love with someone other than my H. If this is your situation, I have no problem in offering my experience or support. If all you want is sex with 2 men, I apologize, but I have no advice, only because I have not experienced that situation.
Whatever the situation, my thoughts are with you.
Red
When it started H didn't know.It was supposed to be just sex.I realize now OM and I were bonded emotionally before we had sex.We have always talked alot and understood each other.H even said that when we were working through it last night.Then we had the threesome.I love both my H and the OM.My H does adore me and gives me the world.He didn't desreve what I did.
I truly believe OM Loves me but couldn't deal with his feelings.H has said this numerous times.
Renee