Pouring out the contents of my heart

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Registered: 11-06-2008
Pouring out the contents of my heart
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Sun, 11-09-2008 - 11:08pm

I'm wide awake and in a writing mood tonight so I think I may just pour might heart out. I am experiencing so many emotions right now and I think I'll feel a wee better if I share with the only ones who understand.


AP and I have grown very close over the course of almost two and a half years.

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Registered: 08-31-2008
Mon, 11-10-2008 - 2:53am
>>>>can't stand the idea of life without him.
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Never ever make your happiness dependent on someone else.
He is just a man (wait for withclarity to confirm it):)
Life goes on whether he is with you or without you:)
(((Hugs)))
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Registered: 11-06-2008
Mon, 11-10-2008 - 7:50am

I am able to be happy without him.....but I still want him in my life.

I fell in love with him 16 years ago. We were too young and immature. Things did not work out. We remained friends for the next 2-3 years keeping in touch. Then we lost touch, each got married and had children. There weren't many days that would go by without me thinking of him. We would see each other at community events when he was in town but not speak because of nerves. There were times I didn't speak because I was afraid of what might happen in the presence of other people. I was afraid that my ongoing love for him would be apparent to our spouses.

Then two years ago, he found me on a networking sight. I was shocked as I had looked for him for years just to know how he was. Or where he was. I heard his work took him out of state but was not sure.

Anyhow, once we started talking again, it was like we started up where we left off but we were alot wiser this time.

I was able to find happiness in the years without him, but it was hard not having him in my life. I know that if we do not work out that I will be able to move on with my life, but as I have for the time that he and I were not in communication, I will feel like a piece of me is missing.

Have you eve felt like a small piece of you were missing? Life does go on,and life can be very good. But I prefer it with the little piece present.

BTW, I have read many of Clarity's post and respect her wisdom:-)