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| Sun, 08-31-2003 - 5:10pm |
hey ya all - I'm having a rather hard day with it being a holiday weekend and knowing MM is with his family and I can't see him (I've even tried calling him - that's how bad I'm doing! :( )
Been thinking that I am not cut out for this A stuff! :( Thoughts of NEVER getting to experience a life with him and knowing that I am an "extra" in his life hurt beyond words! And yet I fear I don't have the strength to walk away and so I resign to just hurt! :(
UGH - this weekend is really taking a toll on me! HOpe you all are doing better than me!
hugs,
K

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totally understandable. I know which one you don't do.. same with MM and I, but lately we talk more then we.. ya know. The voice mail is good for us, we are in constant communication and I hate when I can't hear his voice for even a day.!
MM is on vacation all week, with his W. I'll see him at school picking up the kids.. with her on his As* and at football practice, with her on his As* and he says she's going into work on Thursday so if that happens I'll see him then... He's been out of town since Fri. and he's left me the sweetest messages all weekend... He's affraid to call me from his cell phone just in case she looks at the bill, but he thinks he can explain the pager away, I'm sure he can, his w believes anything he tells her.
=)
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