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Reminiscing...
| Tue, 03-09-2004 - 12:58pm |
There are somedays I can just dream about how things could be and be happy about it. Other days I am a little sad about how things could have been a little different. There were opportunities - some missed and some taken at tide - but all in all I have no regrets. I have a lots of emails from him - some not so good (LOL) and some very sweet emails from him. If were to end today, I am at a place where I can pick up the pieces and move on. This is not to say I want to end or anything - just mentioning my state of mind. Right now, mentioning "just" - I can thing of two convos with MM that are bittersweet. :) He used to hate that word coming out of my mouth, but now he is "used" to it (I think). LOL
Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble on my random thoughts here. This board has been a godsend (literally!!)to me and I love posting my thoughts here. Thanks...

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And my R with my OW will hopefully progress into the future. But if it doesn't, I will always be grateful for the love and respect she has shown me. I now know that I can be a better man than I have been in the past. I know that a real connection on every level is possible and it is what I deserve.
I guess for me, bittersweet describes something different. The ending of my M. My W is a good person and someone I care about a great deal. I wish her nothing but happiness and I know she will move on and find someone who is a better fit for her. But I can't continue down the path I'm on and still become the person I want and need to be. So I have to say goodbye to this stage of my life and move on to a new and frightening one.
Still, I can see how for most of the people here, the A would be such a bittersweet experience. To feel so loved and so happy to have found someone and yet never fully be able to share that person's life. Still, those stolen moments and experiences are worth every pain I'm sure. Love always is.
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PS: I don't mean to be such a drama queen today. :(
Edited 3/10/2004 11:59 am ET ET by julietsfate
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Edited 3/10/2004 12:09 pm ET ET by julietsfate
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Live, Love and Be Happy!
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